08/05/2017

WHY ANXIETY WILL ALWAYS BE MY SECOND SHADOW

Hi, guys... *guilty face*. It has been an embarrassingly long time since I last posted but hey, this post may help to shed light on why that has been. 

I wanted and almost needed to write this post for many reasons; some cliche such as helping other people in this situation out and offering them a helping hand, some personal; much heavier reasons that are probably best left for another day, but also for catharsis. There is something heartwarmingly therapeutic about getting the weight off of your shoulders and sharing your heartache with another person, or in my case many people, it makes you feel lighter in a sense. At least for me. We all know the cringe catchphrase - "A problem shared is a problem halved." Cliche but always accurate.

If I can help just one person that reads this I will be over the moon. Whether you looking to become more educated about mental health or you are someone in a similar situation to me and you are looking to find some condolence that you are not alone. Because you aren't alone at all. Trust me when I say this; whilst mental illness can make you feel like you are the only person on this entire planet you are not alone and I personally don't want anyone to feel this way, so if anybody reading this if currently feeling this way please reach out to me, I will always have all of the time for you, any time of the day and for anyone at all.


I feel like the best place to start is the beginning although the beginning is a bit of grey area. Personally I feel like for myself I can't pinpoint exactly where my relationship with anxiety and mental illness began, it just kind of happened. When I think back I strongly believe that I was an anxious child; not to say that I didn't have a happy childhood as I had the happiest childhood in the world. Some of my earliest memories are of me surrounded by my family in some amazing places having the most amazing time, usually with my nanny in tow who I was incredibly, incredibly close to. But I always had nigglings in the back of my head, starting sometime around the middle of middle school. Its hard for me to pinpoint whether this was before or after my Nanny passed but I know that this very much likely influenced these thoughts in the back of my head. I hadn't lost anyone close to me before she died and I hadn't ever had to come to terms with the term death and it obviously terrified me. I became obsessed with worry over all of my family members and particularly my dad when he left for work each day and this ladies and gentlemen is where OCD invites himself to the party. I used to have compulsive thoughts and worries about my Dad driving to work everyday and driving home and worrying about him getting home each day. So, the way my brain decided to deal with these is by creating these little "rituals" and compulsions for me to complete and if I did what my brain asked me to then everything would be okay. I know now that those rituals weren't made up by brain as a rational way to deal with the situation, but instead it was the anxiety talking and taking the wheel. So I would tell myself that praying when I got home would make everything okay, that leaving part of my dinner would make everything okay, that clicking the light switch would make everything okay... I'm sure you can see where I am going with this and I would complete these everyday in the hope that it would make everything okay and fortunately everything was okay; not as a result of my compulsions but unfortunately I never realised this at the time; I was just a scared little girl praying for everything to be okay and panicking and crying when her Dad popped to the pub after work on a Friday night and forgot to let my Mum know.

Your first panic attack is something that will stick by you forever and I feel like you will remember that feeling and the way you felt for eternity. I hadnt ever had anything close to a panic attack in my life before this day and I think that that may have been what terrified me so much. Mental health was never discussed at my school in any great capacity when we were this age and I also believe that this is part of the problem; who knows had I been more educated maybe I would have been more equipped to deal with situation a bit better but alas, this will be for another post. Panic attacks can happen in the place that you would least expect them to. For me, I was in my early teenage years and I was on my way back from Norwich on the train to Great Yarmouth after a lovely day out and after having just the nicest time. As we got on the train we could tell something wasn't quite right and wasn't quite the way it normally is and then we realised that Norwich had been playing at home that day and now many, and I mean many, of the fans were on the train on their way home. In the rational part of my brain I just saw this as an inconvienice as we wouldn't be able to sit down and would have to stand or sit in the bike racks for the majority of the ride home, but a new part of my brain started to kick in, come on in anxiety. My head started racing with so many thoughts "What if I need to escape?", "How can I get out of this?", "Can everyone else see that I am freaking out over 'nothing'?". Within seconds that lasted a lifetime my breathing started to quicken and before I knew it I was fully hyperventilating and had started to have what soon became to be known as a panic attack to me. I felt terrified, alone and like a complete freak, in my head I thought  I was the only person like this...

I left this on the back burner for a little while as I simply didn't know what to do in this situation and because I hadn't of heard of anyone else going through a similar situation I was so scared; throw in school and some of "friends" there that soon turned into the nastiest cruelest people I've ever met and you've got yourself a recipe for disaster. I tried my GP as my first resort and this was as hopeless as me. I went back 3 times in the space of 3 months as they told me these thoughts and these compulsions were just a result of exam stress and as much as I disagreed my opinion never seemed to matter to her. The next visit I was tested for asthma (???????) and then finally we got somewhere and she said that maybe it was due to an anxiety disorder. Hello Generalised Anxiety Disorder. I was prescribed some nasty little antidepressants (Sertraline) and sent on my way. No information, no explantation just a 15 year old girl left to go home with a bag full of pills. Now, I don't recommend that anyone show do as I done but I chose to take myself off of these tablets before consulting a doctor, a bad move but luckily for me I didn't receive unpleasant symptoms and didn't have the heart to deal with my GP again after being let down. These tablets were not for me and I was left to continue to fake being sick by throwing cups of water down the toilet so I could stay home and miss school. (Shoutout to my friend Savannah for being AWESOME and bringing me a card and chocolate and for just caring enough to help, even without fully knowing the situation and still being a massive help to this day πŸ’˜)

Whilst my mental health issues as of right now may be different to what I was experiencing when I was younger they are still very much prevalent in my life today, maybe even more so. For example the other day I should have been at a friend of mines baby shower that I had been looking forward to for the longest time but because of certain things combined with all of this I couldn't face it. Anxiety, OCD, Depression and Panic Disorder feel like family that I never asked for and as much as I would LOVE to cut them out; like family they are always there. I have noticed a change in the way that I have been coping with my mental illness recently and it isn't necessarily for the best. I am medication and therapy free and for years I have been fuelling myself to get by by having a positive mental attitude and by using self-taught techniques such as the senses game but recently these haven't quite been cutting it. I have been feeling extremely burnt out, I'm undecided if this is due to overworking or just a build up of emotion or most likely a mixture of both. The lack of enjoyment and motivation and enthusiasm has been affecting me a lot as I have no enthusiasm or motivation whilst working or the enthusiasm to plan stuff for my days off on some days. At the same time as this I have just gotten to a point where I am just so totally over peoples shit. I have spent so much time of my life letting people walk all over me and that is done with now πŸ™…πŸΌ.

In the last month, this has lead to a fair few confrontations, many involving horrible nasty customers and work and just bad people. In the space of a few months I have had to deal with and fight against racism (twice) and mental health discrimination at work and I refuse to stand by and let this happen ever again. 

I feel like it has gotten to the point where I need to consider seeing a therapist or perhaps taking a different approach. But after a few weeks of exhaustion and feeling ever so stressed and down I am feeling so so good these last few days and I am determined for this to remain and I am happy to accept that we all have bad days or bad weeks.

If you have read until here you are the best and I appreciate it and you more than you will ever know.

I hope this helps anyone, even in the slightest way and I know I feeling pretty ecstatic after finishing writing this. I feel like a massive rock that has been on my chest for years has finally been taken off and I am determined to stay on this high for as long as possible which should be easy as I am surrounded by some amazing people. (Special shoutout to Marc, despite being in a different country you still never fail to be an amazing friend ❗️)

On a sidenote, I went to the hairdressers the other day which is huge for me and I couldn't be happier with my hair or with myself for going and for also answering the door twice this week!!!!



I love you all so much and thank you so much for reading,


Love,


34 comments:

  1. Having anxiety issues is horrible, especially when people around you don't understand :( it can affect you in so many ways. Always here if you want a chat xx

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    1. It definitely can be! I am very fortunate that most of the people around me are very supportive and do understand and they are the people that I have decided to keep in my life! Thank you so much for your support lovely! x x

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  2. Thank you for writing about your experience, it is (and so are) part of our big old massive effort to destigmatise mental health. Way to go!

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    1. Definitely agree with you 100%. It is a team effort but one day we will all get there! High five! xx

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  3. Oh babe, having anxiety is the worst. I suffer myself so if you ever need to have a chat I am always here for you, always. So sad to hear the affect it's had on you. Hope you're having a really wonderful day. πŸŒΈπŸ’—✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
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    1. Oh no, I am sorry to hear that Alisha! I hope everything is going okay at the moment, anxiety wise and otherwise! Whilst it might have had a bad effect in the past I definitely try not to let this affect me now! Thank you so much for your support and I hope everything is okay with you πŸ’˜

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  4. You are a bloody champion for being able to write this! I'm so proud of you girl. I can relate to so much of what you have said and I am most glad that you feel somewhat better for writing it. Giving you the biggest cyber hug ����

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    1. THANKYOU SO MUCH πŸ™ˆ I am so so soooo glad that you liked this post and a massive thank you for the lovely words and the support! Sending big hugs and thanks your way 😊 xxx

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  5. bless your heart hun - you truly are such a strong person to deal with all of that! I hope your work situation gets better as they should most certainly be helping you. If you ever need a chat or want to vent, I'm here. xxx

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    1. Thank you so much Hannah! Your support honestly means the world to me, thank you so much πŸ’˜

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  6. This was very brave of you to right Sian! Shows you're a strong girl and if you ever need anyone to chat to I'm here! x

    G | www.teawithgi.com

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  7. Sweet, sweet Sian. You are my wonderful buddy and I'm so grateful that we are friends. I really am. First of all, I'm so incredibly proud of you for writing this blogpost, from my own experience I know how difficult it can be to finally talk about it. You have done a great job telling us how you feel and how anxiety and other MH issues affect you every day. It's not easy to write about, but you have done a great job and you writing is excellent. Words fail me to describe the proud feeling I have and how much love I have for you. You are not alone. You are NEVER alone. I'm always here for you, my lovey pal. I love you so much <3

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    1. Marc I am so grateful too. You always always amaze and surprise me with how strong you truly are and I can't thank you enough for that and for always being there. Im so glad I have such a lovely and sweet friend like you to lean back on for support and I will always be forever grateful for that! LY lots and lots! πŸ’˜

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  8. Thank you so much for telling your story my dear. I see a lot of myself in you. You are so strong babe. If you ever need a chat, I'm here! XX

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    1. Im sure you are such a strong lady also Ella! I will definitely take you up on that and the same definitely applies to you! πŸ’˜

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  9. I complete relate, I have suffered with anxiety for 5 years now and it's an awful and crippling disease. You are a strong person and there are so many ways to fight it! You are so brave for writing this and if you ever need a chat I'm here xx

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    1. You're such a strong person then also my lovely! Thank you so much xxxx

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  10. Very brave of you to open up like this!

    Becks x

    http://www.thatssobecks.blogspot.co.uk

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  11. I've had so many panic attacks but my anxiety is starting to subside! It started when I hit puberty and I have to say my hormones have definitely calmed down and it's such a relief as it's such a massive burden. If you ever need to talk just drop me a dm xx

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    1. Oh i couldn't be more happier for you that they are starting to subside! Thats absolutely amazing news! thank you so much sweetness x x

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  12. I am so proud of you for writing about this! You're so strong for dealing with all this. I relate so much and am always here if you need a chat! Thank you for writing this xx

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    1. Thank you ever so much for your lovely kind words Leah sweetheart x x

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  13. Anxiety is so awful, it's so brave of you to write all of this but sometimes it's a great way to relieve some of the stress! I hope your good days continue lovely x

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    1. Definitely was a weight off of my chest! Thankyou so much for your support lovely! xx

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  14. Thank you for sharing this, I don't suffer with anxiety but I understand how horrible it can be, you're so brave for sharing this x

    Kayleigh Zara
    www.kayleighzaraa.com

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    1. Thankyou so much Kayleigh,your kind words mean so so much to me! X

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  15. Wow this is such a brave post and so good of you to open up. I hope this will help someone that needs it.We all have bad days but hopefully can focus on the good ones x

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    1. Definitely Harriet! We all just need to keep a positive head! ☺️

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  16. I have anxiety too, Thank you for sharing you story!!

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  17. This is a beautifully written, honest post! Be proud of yourself gorgeous girl, because we sure are! xxx

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    1. Oh Lydia sweetheart! Thankyou so much! ❤️❤️

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WHY ANXIETY WILL ALWAYS BE MY SECOND SHADOW

Hi, guys... *guilty face*. It has been an embarrassingly long time since I last posted but hey, this post may help to shed light on why that has been. 

I wanted and almost needed to write this post for many reasons; some cliche such as helping other people in this situation out and offering them a helping hand, some personal; much heavier reasons that are probably best left for another day, but also for catharsis. There is something heartwarmingly therapeutic about getting the weight off of your shoulders and sharing your heartache with another person, or in my case many people, it makes you feel lighter in a sense. At least for me. We all know the cringe catchphrase - "A problem shared is a problem halved." Cliche but always accurate.

If I can help just one person that reads this I will be over the moon. Whether you looking to become more educated about mental health or you are someone in a similar situation to me and you are looking to find some condolence that you are not alone. Because you aren't alone at all. Trust me when I say this; whilst mental illness can make you feel like you are the only person on this entire planet you are not alone and I personally don't want anyone to feel this way, so if anybody reading this if currently feeling this way please reach out to me, I will always have all of the time for you, any time of the day and for anyone at all.


I feel like the best place to start is the beginning although the beginning is a bit of grey area. Personally I feel like for myself I can't pinpoint exactly where my relationship with anxiety and mental illness began, it just kind of happened. When I think back I strongly believe that I was an anxious child; not to say that I didn't have a happy childhood as I had the happiest childhood in the world. Some of my earliest memories are of me surrounded by my family in some amazing places having the most amazing time, usually with my nanny in tow who I was incredibly, incredibly close to. But I always had nigglings in the back of my head, starting sometime around the middle of middle school. Its hard for me to pinpoint whether this was before or after my Nanny passed but I know that this very much likely influenced these thoughts in the back of my head. I hadn't lost anyone close to me before she died and I hadn't ever had to come to terms with the term death and it obviously terrified me. I became obsessed with worry over all of my family members and particularly my dad when he left for work each day and this ladies and gentlemen is where OCD invites himself to the party. I used to have compulsive thoughts and worries about my Dad driving to work everyday and driving home and worrying about him getting home each day. So, the way my brain decided to deal with these is by creating these little "rituals" and compulsions for me to complete and if I did what my brain asked me to then everything would be okay. I know now that those rituals weren't made up by brain as a rational way to deal with the situation, but instead it was the anxiety talking and taking the wheel. So I would tell myself that praying when I got home would make everything okay, that leaving part of my dinner would make everything okay, that clicking the light switch would make everything okay... I'm sure you can see where I am going with this and I would complete these everyday in the hope that it would make everything okay and fortunately everything was okay; not as a result of my compulsions but unfortunately I never realised this at the time; I was just a scared little girl praying for everything to be okay and panicking and crying when her Dad popped to the pub after work on a Friday night and forgot to let my Mum know.

Your first panic attack is something that will stick by you forever and I feel like you will remember that feeling and the way you felt for eternity. I hadnt ever had anything close to a panic attack in my life before this day and I think that that may have been what terrified me so much. Mental health was never discussed at my school in any great capacity when we were this age and I also believe that this is part of the problem; who knows had I been more educated maybe I would have been more equipped to deal with situation a bit better but alas, this will be for another post. Panic attacks can happen in the place that you would least expect them to. For me, I was in my early teenage years and I was on my way back from Norwich on the train to Great Yarmouth after a lovely day out and after having just the nicest time. As we got on the train we could tell something wasn't quite right and wasn't quite the way it normally is and then we realised that Norwich had been playing at home that day and now many, and I mean many, of the fans were on the train on their way home. In the rational part of my brain I just saw this as an inconvienice as we wouldn't be able to sit down and would have to stand or sit in the bike racks for the majority of the ride home, but a new part of my brain started to kick in, come on in anxiety. My head started racing with so many thoughts "What if I need to escape?", "How can I get out of this?", "Can everyone else see that I am freaking out over 'nothing'?". Within seconds that lasted a lifetime my breathing started to quicken and before I knew it I was fully hyperventilating and had started to have what soon became to be known as a panic attack to me. I felt terrified, alone and like a complete freak, in my head I thought  I was the only person like this...

I left this on the back burner for a little while as I simply didn't know what to do in this situation and because I hadn't of heard of anyone else going through a similar situation I was so scared; throw in school and some of "friends" there that soon turned into the nastiest cruelest people I've ever met and you've got yourself a recipe for disaster. I tried my GP as my first resort and this was as hopeless as me. I went back 3 times in the space of 3 months as they told me these thoughts and these compulsions were just a result of exam stress and as much as I disagreed my opinion never seemed to matter to her. The next visit I was tested for asthma (???????) and then finally we got somewhere and she said that maybe it was due to an anxiety disorder. Hello Generalised Anxiety Disorder. I was prescribed some nasty little antidepressants (Sertraline) and sent on my way. No information, no explantation just a 15 year old girl left to go home with a bag full of pills. Now, I don't recommend that anyone show do as I done but I chose to take myself off of these tablets before consulting a doctor, a bad move but luckily for me I didn't receive unpleasant symptoms and didn't have the heart to deal with my GP again after being let down. These tablets were not for me and I was left to continue to fake being sick by throwing cups of water down the toilet so I could stay home and miss school. (Shoutout to my friend Savannah for being AWESOME and bringing me a card and chocolate and for just caring enough to help, even without fully knowing the situation and still being a massive help to this day πŸ’˜)

Whilst my mental health issues as of right now may be different to what I was experiencing when I was younger they are still very much prevalent in my life today, maybe even more so. For example the other day I should have been at a friend of mines baby shower that I had been looking forward to for the longest time but because of certain things combined with all of this I couldn't face it. Anxiety, OCD, Depression and Panic Disorder feel like family that I never asked for and as much as I would LOVE to cut them out; like family they are always there. I have noticed a change in the way that I have been coping with my mental illness recently and it isn't necessarily for the best. I am medication and therapy free and for years I have been fuelling myself to get by by having a positive mental attitude and by using self-taught techniques such as the senses game but recently these haven't quite been cutting it. I have been feeling extremely burnt out, I'm undecided if this is due to overworking or just a build up of emotion or most likely a mixture of both. The lack of enjoyment and motivation and enthusiasm has been affecting me a lot as I have no enthusiasm or motivation whilst working or the enthusiasm to plan stuff for my days off on some days. At the same time as this I have just gotten to a point where I am just so totally over peoples shit. I have spent so much time of my life letting people walk all over me and that is done with now πŸ™…πŸΌ.

In the last month, this has lead to a fair few confrontations, many involving horrible nasty customers and work and just bad people. In the space of a few months I have had to deal with and fight against racism (twice) and mental health discrimination at work and I refuse to stand by and let this happen ever again. 

I feel like it has gotten to the point where I need to consider seeing a therapist or perhaps taking a different approach. But after a few weeks of exhaustion and feeling ever so stressed and down I am feeling so so good these last few days and I am determined for this to remain and I am happy to accept that we all have bad days or bad weeks.

If you have read until here you are the best and I appreciate it and you more than you will ever know.

I hope this helps anyone, even in the slightest way and I know I feeling pretty ecstatic after finishing writing this. I feel like a massive rock that has been on my chest for years has finally been taken off and I am determined to stay on this high for as long as possible which should be easy as I am surrounded by some amazing people. (Special shoutout to Marc, despite being in a different country you still never fail to be an amazing friend ❗️)

On a sidenote, I went to the hairdressers the other day which is huge for me and I couldn't be happier with my hair or with myself for going and for also answering the door twice this week!!!!



I love you all so much and thank you so much for reading,


Love,


34 comments

  1. Having anxiety issues is horrible, especially when people around you don't understand :( it can affect you in so many ways. Always here if you want a chat xx

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    1. It definitely can be! I am very fortunate that most of the people around me are very supportive and do understand and they are the people that I have decided to keep in my life! Thank you so much for your support lovely! x x

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  2. Thank you for writing about your experience, it is (and so are) part of our big old massive effort to destigmatise mental health. Way to go!

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    1. Definitely agree with you 100%. It is a team effort but one day we will all get there! High five! xx

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  3. Oh babe, having anxiety is the worst. I suffer myself so if you ever need to have a chat I am always here for you, always. So sad to hear the affect it's had on you. Hope you're having a really wonderful day. πŸŒΈπŸ’—✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
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    1. Oh no, I am sorry to hear that Alisha! I hope everything is going okay at the moment, anxiety wise and otherwise! Whilst it might have had a bad effect in the past I definitely try not to let this affect me now! Thank you so much for your support and I hope everything is okay with you πŸ’˜

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  4. You are a bloody champion for being able to write this! I'm so proud of you girl. I can relate to so much of what you have said and I am most glad that you feel somewhat better for writing it. Giving you the biggest cyber hug ����

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    1. THANKYOU SO MUCH πŸ™ˆ I am so so soooo glad that you liked this post and a massive thank you for the lovely words and the support! Sending big hugs and thanks your way 😊 xxx

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  5. bless your heart hun - you truly are such a strong person to deal with all of that! I hope your work situation gets better as they should most certainly be helping you. If you ever need a chat or want to vent, I'm here. xxx

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    1. Thank you so much Hannah! Your support honestly means the world to me, thank you so much πŸ’˜

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  6. This was very brave of you to right Sian! Shows you're a strong girl and if you ever need anyone to chat to I'm here! x

    G | www.teawithgi.com

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  7. Sweet, sweet Sian. You are my wonderful buddy and I'm so grateful that we are friends. I really am. First of all, I'm so incredibly proud of you for writing this blogpost, from my own experience I know how difficult it can be to finally talk about it. You have done a great job telling us how you feel and how anxiety and other MH issues affect you every day. It's not easy to write about, but you have done a great job and you writing is excellent. Words fail me to describe the proud feeling I have and how much love I have for you. You are not alone. You are NEVER alone. I'm always here for you, my lovey pal. I love you so much <3

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    1. Marc I am so grateful too. You always always amaze and surprise me with how strong you truly are and I can't thank you enough for that and for always being there. Im so glad I have such a lovely and sweet friend like you to lean back on for support and I will always be forever grateful for that! LY lots and lots! πŸ’˜

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  8. Thank you so much for telling your story my dear. I see a lot of myself in you. You are so strong babe. If you ever need a chat, I'm here! XX

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    1. Im sure you are such a strong lady also Ella! I will definitely take you up on that and the same definitely applies to you! πŸ’˜

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  9. I complete relate, I have suffered with anxiety for 5 years now and it's an awful and crippling disease. You are a strong person and there are so many ways to fight it! You are so brave for writing this and if you ever need a chat I'm here xx

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    1. You're such a strong person then also my lovely! Thank you so much xxxx

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  10. Very brave of you to open up like this!

    Becks x

    http://www.thatssobecks.blogspot.co.uk

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  11. I've had so many panic attacks but my anxiety is starting to subside! It started when I hit puberty and I have to say my hormones have definitely calmed down and it's such a relief as it's such a massive burden. If you ever need to talk just drop me a dm xx

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    1. Oh i couldn't be more happier for you that they are starting to subside! Thats absolutely amazing news! thank you so much sweetness x x

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  12. I am so proud of you for writing about this! You're so strong for dealing with all this. I relate so much and am always here if you need a chat! Thank you for writing this xx

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    1. Thank you ever so much for your lovely kind words Leah sweetheart x x

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  13. Anxiety is so awful, it's so brave of you to write all of this but sometimes it's a great way to relieve some of the stress! I hope your good days continue lovely x

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    1. Definitely was a weight off of my chest! Thankyou so much for your support lovely! xx

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  14. Thank you for sharing this, I don't suffer with anxiety but I understand how horrible it can be, you're so brave for sharing this x

    Kayleigh Zara
    www.kayleighzaraa.com

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    1. Thankyou so much Kayleigh,your kind words mean so so much to me! X

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  15. Wow this is such a brave post and so good of you to open up. I hope this will help someone that needs it.We all have bad days but hopefully can focus on the good ones x

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    1. Definitely Harriet! We all just need to keep a positive head! ☺️

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  16. I have anxiety too, Thank you for sharing you story!!

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  17. This is a beautifully written, honest post! Be proud of yourself gorgeous girl, because we sure are! xxx

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    1. Oh Lydia sweetheart! Thankyou so much! ❤️❤️

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