Friday, 9 June 2017

EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY








I write this post today with a heavy heart and not entirely in the best place. As many of you will know, I have been completely non existent on most forms of my social media, especially Instagram and Twitter for the last few weeks and for those of you who noticed that I had slipped under the radar and reached out to me to see how I was I apologise for not being the best at getting back to you before today but I appreciate your concerns more than you will ever know. This is going to be a very shambley and all over the place post and I apologise for this.

Manchester and London. Two amazing cities that will be tainted by the horrific events in the last few weeks for a lifetime, the former particularly. These attacks have affected me in ways that I cannot even begin to express. A big part of my absence in the blogging and social media sphere is easily correlated with this. I could not wrap my head around the fact that people were able to adapt so easily and be posting their "Lipstick Collections" and posting images of perfectly placed and colourful flatlays highlighting their favourite posts of the month the next day after this country had been completing warped by terror. It all felt like ridiculousness, I felt guilty even being able to go to the shop that day and for who privileged we all are just to be alive; events like this truly bring this fact home for us all. Even now I feel like what has happened this year has changed my outlook and my thoughts about the world and what the priorities are. I ultimately believe that this has changed what my content will be from now on, maybe not completely but reflecting back these events genuinely change us all and our outlooks on the world. My heart goes to anyone in the arena, on the bridge, anyone injured, anyone who lost their lives and anyone affected as a tragedy like this truly affects us all. I'm heartbroken that this has happened and the way the government have handled this situation is horrendous and they should be very very ashamed of themselves and for allowing this to happen. The way this whole country has come together and are spreading positivity inspires me daily and truly restores my faith in some of humanity. ISIS, love is catching and spreading, good luck.

I'm sorry for anyone who is treated badly and physically and verbally attacked due to individuals heartless and callous behaviour. I am sorry that Islam is being misrepresented in this way and I am so very sorry that you cannot walk down the street or walk into your place of work without being persuecuted for acts that you would never even dream of doing. But, anyone with a heart and anyone with something in-between their ears will know that these people are individuals and don't represent  a religion.

The results of the election has also taken a massive effect on me. On my personal Twitter I am very open about my passion and my support for the Labour Party and in particular Jeremy Corbyn. For the first time in my life I have felt so inspired by this man and I have NEVER trusted and believed in a politician before this point. I am completely heartbroken that we lost this election and that the power is back in the hands of the most vile and evil collection of people we have in this country but we must all be so proud of everything that we have achieved by voting Labour. Young people and women KILLED it in this election and I couldn't be more proud of everyone that took their time to vote as it is so so incredibly important. I am so saddened that our government have decided to join forces with a party as disgusting and archaic as the DUP. For anyone unaware their beliefs and ideas include issues such as anti abortion, anti gay rights, anti gay marriage and adoption etc and I am heartbroken that this is even our reality right now. My heart bleeds for anyone who this directly offends and affects and please know that this isn't a representation of what this country believes and never question your worth because of these backward disgusting imbeciles.

On a more personal level I have been heartbroken to learn that my step-nanny has been diagnosed with cervical cancer after weeks and weeks of being in and out of hospital. After my nanny died due to a brain tumour my Granddad was in pieces and after learning that his second wife is now going to suffer this horrible illness has shook him too his core and my heart bleeds for him. My thoughts , prays and hopes are with them both.

I have spent the last few weeks definitely struggling and coming back to blogging is going to feel like a strange transition for me. I have been struggling with a persistent low mood and I am so damn tired all the time. Unfortunately, my diet has gone to shit. After losing a stone and a half and feeling great I am putting some weight back on as I am such a comfort eater and feeling this way definitely makes me want to retreat to my bed with a huge slab of DairyMilk. I am very much struggling with conversations and texts at the moment, I feel so disengaged and uninterested in conversations and please know that this isn't through choice and I feel guilty for it all of the time.

Moving on from this I think writing more personal posts could definitely help me here. Spilling my thoughts is so important and makes me feel so much better and so much more human. I have contacted the Labour party and I am hoping to volunteer in the future to help fight for my beliefs and for what is right and also to proceed with obtaining counselling through the private healthcare provided through my work. Youtube is something that I would definitely love to try soon when I have the confidence and the courage as I could portray my thoughts and my passion in a very fitting format.

Thankyou anyone who reads this little ramble, I forever appreciate you.


Love,


Friday, 12 May 2017

THE KKW X KYLIE COLLECTION: HOLY GRAIL OR ABSOLUTE FAIL?




Today I bring a very exciting post and that is testing the KKW X KYLIE Collection and letting you all know my honest thoughts on Kylie Jenner's latest money maker and deciding whether this collection is a HOLY GRAIL 😍or an ABSOLUTE FAIL πŸ‘ŽπŸ»

From the moment I saw Kim share the image of the four lipsticks I knew instantly that I had to get my hands on this collection. I've always been someone thats interested in Kylie Cosmetics and the products that she and her team creates; also the madness each time a new product is launched is madness. No matter what your opinion of the Kardashian/Jenner clan is I think it is fair for everyone to admit just how successful this family is. No matter what they are doing or creating they are PERFECT at "breaking the internet" and causing a storm and so much attention; so guys, atlas commend them for that. I personally LOVE the whole family and I think the relationship and bond they all have for each other is the sweetest thing. So, as a avid fan of KUWTK and Kim especially I knew that this would finally be the right time to purchase a Kylie Cosmetics product.

Monday, 8 May 2017

WHY ANXIETY WILL ALWAYS BE MY SECOND SHADOW

Hi, guys... *guilty face*. It has been an embarrassingly long time since I last posted but hey, this post may help to shed light on why that has been. 

I wanted and almost needed to write this post for many reasons; some cliche such as helping other people in this situation out and offering them a helping hand, some personal; much heavier reasons that are probably best left for another day, but also for catharsis. There is something heartwarmingly therapeutic about getting the weight off of your shoulders and sharing your heartache with another person, or in my case many people, it makes you feel lighter in a sense. At least for me. We all know the cringe catchphrase - "A problem shared is a problem halved." Cliche but always accurate.

If I can help just one person that reads this I will be over the moon. Whether you looking to become more educated about mental health or you are someone in a similar situation to me and you are looking to find some condolence that you are not alone. Because you aren't alone at all. Trust me when I say this; whilst mental illness can make you feel like you are the only person on this entire planet you are not alone and I personally don't want anyone to feel this way, so if anybody reading this if currently feeling this way please reach out to me, I will always have all of the time for you, any time of the day and for anyone at all.

Sunday, 16 April 2017

FAIL OR HOLY GRAIL? APRIL







First of all Happy Easter guys!  πŸ£ I hope you are all in a chocolate induced coma and surrounded by empty wrappers and screwed up foil, just how Easter should be! ❤️. Today brings the start of a new series that I would like to start; now I know that I am personally terrible at sticking to schedules and just doing anything on time to be quite honest but this is something that I would definitely like to do monthly or even every other month if that works out being a better schedule for me. In short, every month I will be picking two products either recommended to me or products that are Youtube/Insta hyped and fitting these into either the HOLY GRAIL category πŸ‘ΌπŸΌ or the FAIL categoryπŸ‘ŽπŸ». I hope this is something you will all enjoy and I know I will definitely have A LOT of fun reviewing all of these products! 

This month the two products that I will be picking apart are the MaxFactor Miracle Match foundation and the Revolution Highlighter Palette and for this month we start things with one certain FAIL and one definite HOLY GRAIL. 


Lets start with the MaxFactor Miracle Match foundation. I purchased this foundation from my local Superdrug for £12.99 and I must say that my Superdrug isn't the biggest of stores and normally only carries a select few shades, however the Maxfactor display had quite an array of shades which satisfies the soul when you are a pale ass like myself. The Miracle Match foundation brags that the collection holds 18 shades which is awesome; however in my opinion I believe there is not huge variety in these shades. MaxFactor, wheres the support for the paler and darker ladies?

Monday, 3 April 2017

MY PET PEEVES

SHIT I HATE


Look who is back for the second post in the last few days, don't be too impressed guys ;)

Hello, everyone! Today I have a post that I have been preparing and that I have wanted to write for months now after watching Tana Mongeau's video about her pet peeves and I agreed with SO many of them, and that is telling you some of my BIGGEST pet peeves. Now, I am a very very laid-back person but there are just some things that pick at my emotions and really grind my gears and here is a selection of them! Also, who better to illustrate this list other than eye roll queen Blair Waldorf herself. Let me know in the comments below if any of these are pet peeves that you share yourself or let me know some of your biggest pet peeves also! :) 


PEOPLE CRITICISING AND COMMENTATING ON MY FOOD 

This is something that Tana definitely mentioned in her video and I completely agree with EVERYTHING that she said. All of my life nothing has ever annoyed me more than people who feel some overwhelming urge to share their thoughts and opinions on the food THAT THEY DO NOT NEED TO EAT AND AREN'T EATING whilst you are eating it. This is hands down my least favourite pet peeve and I have always found it so incredibly rude. I didn't ask for your opinion, I chose this food for ME to eat not YOU to eat, I don't know why it drives me so insane but it really pisses me off. 

Lisa: "OH MY GOD, what IS that? That looks SO disgusting! Ew, you like tuna? Tuna is soooooo gross, oh my god it really stinks it looks really disgusting"

FUCK OFF LISA

Saturday, 1 April 2017

ASOS WISHLIST - MARCH

Hello everyone! Today I have another ASOS Wishlist for you, for the month of March. I know its been awhile since my last post, but after some time out due to another bout of illness and working some very long hours I am working on some new posts! I hope you enjoy my ASOS picks for March and more posts will be coming soon! Thanks guys! x





Wednesday, 15 March 2017

Every Girl Needs A Little Black Necklace

Hi guys, it has been a few days since I last posted which is soon frustrating as I had been on such a good streak but sometimes life throws unexpected things at you; I have been pretty poorly the last few days but getting better by the day ☺️






Today I have a very special review for you in collaboration with a brand that truly excites me! James Viana kindly contacted me and asked if I would be happy for them to send me a piece of jewellery from their collection and when it arrived it felt like it was designed just for me.
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